Entry#9 Unspoken Words

Hi.
I don' t even know where to start, what to say. Should I start on how we met? But that would take us forever.

So let us start on what we are. We are the best of friends,  we've known each other since forever. We were together almost all our lives. You are like a twin brother that I never had, because I don't need to speak for you to know that something is wrong, you can read me like an open book. You are my dear diary, you know my secrets, my problems, my success and setbacks. You've  witnessed all the important occassions in my life and likewise I also have with yours. You know what, we can even answer a slam book for each other because we are like that, we know each other too well.

Everyone expects us to end up with each other, our families, our circle of friends.  But we don't hold the future, we can never dictate what will happen. It is still in the hands of God. They see us like some cliché love story, but I want you to know that, I don't want you to pursue me just because you are pressured from the people around us. I don't want you to pursue me just because you are used to having me around. I don't want you to pursue me just because you're infatuated with me. I hope that if ever you will pursue me it is at your own will, at your own decision and with the right reasons.

We've talked about this, I know your priorities know that I understand them. I want you to know that I fully support that you want to enjoy your singleness. Yes, there are times that i feel frustrations, I cry and overthink our situations but that's normal right? I realize that it is important to enjoy our singleness because it is temporary and the next level will be forever. Regardless, know that I want you to enjoy life to the fullest, go out, make new friends, get to know other people and experience more adventures. Because i believe that love works that way, it does not limit the person, it helps the person to expand his/her horizons. When the time comes, I hope you could proudly say that you've enjoyed, no regrets and you're ready for a new season in your life.

I always pray to God that if we are meant to be we will be. and if not I know He has something better in store for us. If the times comes, and it is His will for us to be together, i hope then that we can fully commit because we are ready and complete. But if we are not meant to be together know that I always pray for your happiness. Yes, it will hurt but it is okay, we will be okay. I know God will give the love we deserve.

For now, let us grow individually, mature spiritually and emotionally, get deeper in God. Let us love God and ourselves more. Let us enjoy our singleness and live life to the fullest, make more memories and enjoy the ups and downs of life. Let us continue being friends, get to know each other more while waiting patiently on what the future holds for us