Entry#35

 Today, i feel like i am breaking down. I can pretend na masaya, for a short while so i don't need to explain to anyone. As i take my rest now, i feel like crying, gusto ko lang umiyak, it feels like my heart is so heavy. My mind is full and I am just so tired of everything. Pagod nako magtrabaho, I am tired waking up for other peoples need. I just want yo rest. 

I was watching tv to atleast keep myself busy, pero after watching, my happiness is just short lived. Ganun pa din. 

I can't even understand myself. And i can't explain as well. 

Just tired and unmotivated. Feeling ko di ako umuusad, walang nangyayari. Hanggang saan ko kaya kakayanin? 

Entry#34

 Physical pain is not enough to mask the emotional pain i am feeling. Minsan masarap din sa pakiramdam, may nagaalala, may nagungumusta. Maybe I am a little bit sensitive, because I am sick today. I just hope someone can also check on me, put efforts to ask if kumusta na ba ako, buhay pa ba ako. Maybe they know kaya ko naman, di naman ako mamatay, i am very independent, pero sana out of pagmamahal at care, maalala man lang sana nila akong tanungin, kumustahin kasi baka bukas hindi na pala ako gumising and they will never have the chance to ask me. 

Entry#33

 Lord, nahihirapan po ako. Pero Lord, isa lang po dasal ko, mahal ko po ang taong ito at turuan mo po akong mahalin siya ng tama. Fill me up Lord, so i can give more. And Lord, wag mo po hayaang mapagod at sumuko ang taong ito🙏🙏

Entry#32

 Mark this day, My heart is breaking💔